Wounded Heart

Wounded heart I cannot save you from yourself
Though I wanted to be brave it never helped.
'Cause your trouble's like a flood raging through your veins
No amount of love's enough to end the pain

Tenderness and time can heal a right gone wrong,
But the anger that you feel goes on and on.
And it's not enough to know that I love you still
So I'll take my heart and go for I've had my fill.

If you listen you can hear the angel's wings

Up above our heads so near they are hovering

Waiting to reach out for love when it falls apart

When it cannot rise above a wounded heart.

When it cannot rise above a wounded heart.

What About Love?

I, I'm feeling your thunder
The storm’s getting closer
This rain is like fire
And my, my world’s going under
And I can’t remember
The reason that you cut off the line

[Bridge]
You’re moving on, you say
Here I stay
I’ll take this pain
Yeah, I can, I can

[Chorus]
What about love?
What about our promises?
What about love?
You take it all and leave me nothing
What about love?
What about us to the end?
What about love?
You cut my wings, now I am falling
What about love? [x2]

[Verse 2]
Why you're colder than winter?
You’re switching the picture
You used to be perfect, yeah (yeah)
Once you’re hot like the summer
Please help me remember
The reason that you said “bye bye bye”

[Bridge]
You’re moving on, you say
Here I stay
I’ll take this pain
Yeah, I can, I can

[Chorus]
What about love?
What about our promises?
What about love?
You take it all and leave me nothing
What about love?
What about us to the end?
What about love?
You cut my wings, now I am falling
What about love? [x2]

[Middle 8 - x4]
Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh uh
What about, what about love?

[Bridge]
You’re moving on, you say
Here I stay
Watching every night get colder
You’re moving on, you say
Here I stay
I’ll take this pain
Yeah, I can, I can

[Chorus]
What about love?
What about our promises?
What about love?
You take it all and leave me nothing
What about love?
What about us to the end?
What about love?
You cut my wings, now I am falling
What about love?
What about, what about love?
What about
What about love?
What about, what about love?
What about
What about love?

tears. lies. empty. tired.

tears.

tears well up in my eyes again, down my cheek

"what's wrong?" she asks

"oh nothing, I think it is allergies" i respond

lies. 

lies are what got me this pain to begin with 

i've felt this pain before

the first time you did this, you shattered my heart

empty.  

i feel broken and dead

you've soul crushed my soul 

and left me with nothing but emptiness

weak.

weakness is what allowed me

to let you back in

i loved you again and you did the same thing

reckless.

i opened my heart and loved you

you never cared, just like last time

you were reckless with my heart then disposed of it

temporary.

you brought back a smile

that i had not seen in so long

i thought it would last forever, you made it temporary

tired.

i'm tired of hurting so much

i'm so stupid for loving you

i'm tired of the tears, the lies, the emptiness...

Love

Love doesn't have a speed limit...

jar of hearts (could be a re-post but truly how I feel at this time)

No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
Tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Sight

Out of sight
Out of mind
Does the trick
Every time!

So glad this time its so easy!

toxic release

there comes a day and time when it hits you

you finally realize that the relationship you've been in is toxic

it didn't truly bring you the joy you thought it did

he didn't enhance your life like you did his

you realize that he took advantage of your caring heart

your willingness to open your soul to him

and your ability to truly make him the happiest man

you realize that no matter how hard you tried

you can't fix someone as broken and mentally off as he

you realize that it isn't you or your love that wasn't enough

it was he, that didn't understand how much you loved him

it was he, that didn't want to open his heart and soul to you

it was he, that continued to take his past from others out on you

and it was he, that threw in the towel and made the choice to walk

when this day comes, it sets your soul free

a huge weight lifts from your shoulders

you feel like you can begin to breathe again

you can live again, a true and happy life

when you finally accept that you deserve so much more

it is as if toxic waste once consumed your soul

and its release is like something you've never experienced before

i've recently had this experience

i've realized that what i thought might be love

was truly a distorted and toxic take on a relationship

i've realized that no one deserves to be treated this way

no one deserves to be treated with such wreckless abandon

i've been reminded that i should never date down

and i've looked within to find the self confidence that i've lacked

this lack of self confidence is what lead me to such a toxic man

someone whom i should have never allowed in my life at all

let alone a second time, for a second chance

never again!  today's a new day with so much joy ahead