so, we all have our ups and downs...
good weeks and bad weeks...
many of you know that i have been fighting stomach problems for about a week. actually, i have been fighting my stomach my whole life, but this is different. i've been having really uncomfortable cramping, etc. i will stay out of the details in order to spare you!
i am learning that when i really don't feel well, i want anything to make me feel better including all things junk food. i had myself some chocolate covered pretzels and a huge sandwich on sunday. on monday, i had chipotle for dinner. yesterday, i had a hearty snack of cheese-its for breakfast... and for dinner, a well balanced meal of fried chicken and curly fries from jack in the box, and yes, with ranch dipping sauce, DUH!
so, it is wednesday, and i am over my weekly additional points allowance by 21 points. some might see this as a defeat. i am trying to see and use it as a learning experience.
first, i am learning that i truly eat because of emotion. lets face it, that part i know. but not just knowing it, so much as acknowledging it in the moment that i am eating for emotional reasons and not because of hunger itself. i am learning that all that crap doesn't really taste as good as i thought it would. i am learning to track the points instead of giving up because i went over.
i have decided to take this "mishap" and see it as not only a learning experience but also as feedback. i will take this week's results in stride knowing that i went over and that it is normal to slip at times.
additionally, i am trying to motivate myself to get to the gym to earn back some of the points that i have already indulged in. i have every intention of going to the gym tonight and tomorrow night. these are intentions... not definites, but now that i am putting it in writing i am sure i will look like an asshole if i don't go, so i probably will go just so that i don't look/feel like "that" asshole. also, on friday and saturday i have plans to work it out with colleen at colleen's seriously inferior gym, as my location rocks my socks but she isn't VIP-ness enough to get into mine. and yes, i am making fun of her and her location because she seriously embarrassed me in front of her hot trainer this past weekend and had the nerve to suggest that i work out with him.
UM, YA-HELL-NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the last thing i need to do is spend $50+ an hour on a hunk to make me want to kill him for the torture and me for the embarrassment of the whole thing!
well enough of that, just needed to vent. we all slip up at times, but it is what you do with the experience that i suppose really matters. check back to soon to see if i make it to the gym the next four days... will keep you posted
-20.8 lbs
wednesday gym update:
made it to the gym. 32 minutes on the precor at high intensity. +10 points. weekly status total: still -11 points
thursday gym update: 28 minutes on the precor at high intensity. +9 points. weekly status total: -4 points
friday gym update: missed the gym, life happens... hopefully tomorrow will be different!
saturday gym update: made it to Zumba at the gym for a nice long hour work out. it was such a blast. +19 points.
ended week in the positive instead of the negative. yay
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