I'm leaving... I'm waiting...

our eyes meet and lock

a draw I've never felt before

you approach, we talk

numbers exchanged

excited... i hope you call

surprised, you call... we connect

we have a blast

so compatible, inseparable

you tell me...

don't get close, i'm leaving

i say okay

my heart falls hard

you continue to fill my soul with joy

my heart with love

you act like you're mine but tell me...

don't get close, i'm leaving

by the time it comes

i'm head over heals in love

you tell me...

don't get close, i'm leaving

you say goodbye

i say no

you say don't wait for me

i say, i'm waiting

you say don't wait for me, live your life

i say, i'm waiting

you leave

i begin to wait

shit, this sucks

you're gone

we keep in touch

emails exchanges

instant message conversations

three days pass... no contact

sick. feel so sick. he's hurt, he's gone... my love

contact received

breathe, melissa breathe

phone attached like an appendage

drop everything when it rings, you're there

overwhelmed with joy

my love... you're safe

care packages sent

your days a bit brighter

we grow closer, all we have is this

i fall deeper, so much deeper in love

i picture our future when you return,

you say don't, i'm leaving

i want to be your one and only

scared to tell you, scared you'll run

i still wait

shit, this sucks

you return

you're here, but you're not

something's not right

i attribute it to war

i've no idea what its' done to my love

i'm patient, but scared

something's just not right

i pray you'll open up

you shut me down

you tell me...

stop, i'm leaving

i say no, don't leave me

take me with you

i want you forever

you shut me down

you keep pushing me away

you say, i'm leaving

i want to be your wife

you don't understand

you decide destruction

destruction is easier, she'll hate me

it doesn't work

i love you too much

you eventually destroy it all

and you say, i'm leaving

my heart breaks

a loss like none i've ever felt

you come to me, hug and kiss

you say goodbye, i'm destroyed

you leave

we cant stop, i cant stop

i need you like a drug

emails, texts, calls

i cant break free, you have my heart

email received, i don't know who she is

she knows me.  i don't understand

meet me for drinks?  i comply.  

we meet.  she destroys my everything

its all a lie.  NO! not the man i love!

she has proof.  he's been with her

there's more, it's worse!

i'm the other woman

i call, i scream, i yell

i curse, i cry, i'm done

destruction... heartbreak doesn't describe it

worse than any pain i've ever felt

how could you?  why?  

you have no real answers, not that i hear

our love...

all a lie.  

our truth...

all a lie.

i still love you

you're gone

we continue

i can't stop

you tell me to come

move to be with you

you're not serious

i am

destruction again... it's over.  

i'm dead inside.  destroyed

time passes

i try to move on

heart never the same, never healed

drunk to numb the pain

that's when it happens.  life changes forever

i try to shake you

still can't.  how long could this possibly last?  i need you

years pass

you reach out

you apologize, i still love you

i say more hateful things

try to convince myself i don't love you

i'm mean enough

you go away

my heart still aches

i still love you

more time passes

heart never healed

don't think i'll ever stop loving you

i reach out, able to find you

day 1, nothing.  day 2, nothing.  day 3, 4...

email received.  it's you

heart stops.  he's here.  why?

do i tell you?  

my heart's not healed, my heart's still yours

we start again

forgiveness fills my soul

we start as friends, small talk

turns to deeper conversations

a better understanding of what you've done

maybe our love wasn't all a lie, maybe you did love me?

beyond the separation with her,

i learn that the local fling was to break me

if i hated you, you could leave

easy for you, hard for me

you threw the line.  i took the bait

i let you leave, without my fight

i know you aren't that man

just a victim of broken heart that lead to poor choices

we continue to get to know each other again

its there, the connection, the draw

i want to look you in the eyes

tell you, i forgive you

my heart starts to race again

i feel it happening.  i'm scared

i'm mature enough to realize what you did

you kept me at a distance on purpose

all the leaving, all the destruction

you weren't ready to love me the way i needed

i have faith you're there now

even when you doubt yourself

i see a future with you

happiness like before.  before the destruction

we needed the destruction 

to grow.  to appreciate each other.  to have a fighting chance

i know now, you say i'm leaving

it's a defense... keep people at a distance

i wont accept it this time

i'll fight for you, for us

i stand in front of you

filled with forgiveness

i stand here with an open heart

ready to love you again

i stand here ready for love

ready for all of the ups and downs

you can say i'm leaving

but i'm waiting

this time i wait

i fight. i stay

it wont be easy.  we have challenges ahead

but if you are by my side, we can do this

i have the faith in you, in us

we can be great

i know you can give me what i want

you can make me happy and i can you

you can tell me you're leaving

but i'm waiting

i wont give up, my heart is in

i'm ready for the fight

no expectations, you will not fail

just take care of me, you'll prove yourself wrong

let me in

you're not leaving

i wont let you

i'm waiting

this time

you left me

i waited

you left me again

i gave up

this time

i wont let you leave 

i offer you my forgiveness

i offer you my heart

i offer you me, all of me

i only ask that you let me in

give us a fighting chance

please don't say i'm leaving

because i'm here waiting

i'm waiting for you to open your heart to me

i'm waiting for you to let me in

i'm waiting for you to allow me to love you again

i'm waiting for you to love me 

i'm waiting to make you happy

i'm waiting to see if you'll be mine, forever

i'm waiting, in hopes, that you don't try to leave me

xoxo