toxic release

there comes a day and time when it hits you

you finally realize that the relationship you've been in is toxic

it didn't truly bring you the joy you thought it did

he didn't enhance your life like you did his

you realize that he took advantage of your caring heart

your willingness to open your soul to him

and your ability to truly make him the happiest man

you realize that no matter how hard you tried

you can't fix someone as broken and mentally off as he

you realize that it isn't you or your love that wasn't enough

it was he, that didn't understand how much you loved him

it was he, that didn't want to open his heart and soul to you

it was he, that continued to take his past from others out on you

and it was he, that threw in the towel and made the choice to walk

when this day comes, it sets your soul free

a huge weight lifts from your shoulders

you feel like you can begin to breathe again

you can live again, a true and happy life

when you finally accept that you deserve so much more

it is as if toxic waste once consumed your soul

and its release is like something you've never experienced before

i've recently had this experience

i've realized that what i thought might be love

was truly a distorted and toxic take on a relationship

i've realized that no one deserves to be treated this way

no one deserves to be treated with such wreckless abandon

i've been reminded that i should never date down

and i've looked within to find the self confidence that i've lacked

this lack of self confidence is what lead me to such a toxic man

someone whom i should have never allowed in my life at all

let alone a second time, for a second chance

never again!  today's a new day with so much joy ahead